Into the Flip Side

sorry.

OK now that I am done with the past, onward we march.

I need to wake up. ever so often I find myself in this place.

life has been passing me by lately. And what I mean by that is I have allowed days and weeks to go by where I do not believe I am making a difference for the kingdom. I hate that because of the time I live in all christian terms sound so lame and meaningless.

I am convinced that there are hundreds of thousands of people out there who have dedicated their lives to serving Jesus though I will never hear of them. I believe that there are those who don't have the time to take a break from serving God to worry about how the present culture perceives them. I can't say I am one of those people, in fact, if I was, there is a good chance I would not be sitting where I am sitting and writing this.

I am changing.

there is a pressure in my chest. I need to proclaim God's word. I believe God has put that pressure there.

I want to be burdened. I want to be focused.

i feel as though I need to be submersed in the fire for refinement, that there is a lot attached to me right now that needs to be burnt away.

I was holding my youngest daughter last night in our comfortable and safe two bedroom apartment and praying that God would protect my girls and then I thought about China and I thought about Myanmar. I was a little disgusted with myself.